back at it.

As some of you may know, I went back to work last Monday. And it felt great. I know it sounds weird to say that I'm super excited to be back in an office again, slaving away over excel with a sad desk lunch - but I really am. Don't get me wrong...having time away has been incredible. I've gotten to take midday yoga classes (which are a dream, btw). I've gotten to do some super fulfilling freelance work with people I truly admire. I've gotten to read a lot of books, catch up on a lot of Netflix, spend time with friends, sleep, enjoy the city, relax. But it was also a lot of time alone. A lot of time thinking about what I wanted to do with my life, where I saw my career going, debating if I should go back to school, change industries, give it all up and move to a beach to teach yoga or find myself a rich husband so I could continue to do nothing for the rest of my days. Turns out, the latter is rather challenging, and likely quite boring, so that one was easy to rule out. I still think daily about moving to a beach to teach yoga (and another week of negative temperatures might just push me to do it). And although I'm not totally convinced I won't go back to school at some point, I've worked since I was 15 and just about lost my mind without a job to go to. I also know how lucky I am to be in the industry that I am, and as much as it comes with it's own set of challenges, I worked my ass off to get where I am - and it's also kind of a lot of fun sometimes. 

So, here I am. Back at a 9-5 (well, 9-5 in a dream world), spending my days at a desk, and I couldn't be more grateful. Although I'm only a week in and I'm sure I'll be missing all my free time rather soon, it feels great to feel like a productive and contributing member of the working world again. I always took for granted the structure, stability and fulfillment from working hard and getting paid, and I'm so glad I had this time to reset and remind myself just how fortunate I am to be able to work in a job that I enjoy, with great people, in a great city, in a desired industry. Sure, I'm not changing the world or saving lives, but how great is it to wake up every day knowing that your knowledge and expertise and time is needed and valued? 

So for those of you struggling with what to do with your life, as I was (and, honestly, sometimes still am) - I say take a break. Take the time off. If you're lucky enough, as I was, to be able to step back and reevaluate and rest - do it. You never know what you'll find yourself missing or craving or needing or hating. And it'll make whatever decision you make next all the sweeter in the end.


Jennifer Cook